I have been told many times….
“I don’t know how you can do what you do.” or “Your job must be so hard.”
Of course it is. I’m a nurse. Being a nurse is a DAMN HARD JOB. So hard, that had I known prior to doing all the freaking insane hard work in nursing school just to become a nurse, and then working as a nurse and looking back thinking…”I wish it was easy like it was back in school”…
I wouldn’t have done it.
But, you know, that’s not why people become nurses. Honestly, I don’t even know WHY people become nurses. In addition to that, many will say that they really don’t know why people become hospice nurses.
I really don’t know either. Except that it just feels like where I should be…what I’m good at. I am a hospice nurse.
No, I didn’t always know. I don’t exactly know why I chose this path. In a way, I suppose, I kind of just ended up here. I never had dreams of being a nurse as a child or even as a young adult. When I decided to become a nurse I had no idea what kind of nurse I wanted to be. I just had a thought that “I could do that.”
So it began. I can’t even tell you how may times I have thought that I made a HUGE mistake and OHMYGAWD now I have to do this for the rest of my life? I heard that a lot of (most) nurses feel that way at some point along the way. At least I started to veer in the right direction. Lucky for me.
I’ve kind of had “my own” philosophy for a few years and recently I discovered that the following was a quote from long, long, long ago by Plato..
“Death is not the worst thing that can happen to man.”
THIS is why I am a hospice nurse. I know I didn’t create this idea, but this is the reason I can do what I do on a regular basis and really help people along the way. I have seen proof of this idea along the way in my nursing career as well as within my personal experience. This can be seen as both good and bad, depending on how you look at it. I see it as good.
Somebody’s got to do it.